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[21 Feb 2006|09:30am]
Does anyone ever read this anymore...Damn I can remember back in 11th grade at Charter where we use to go on every break and spend it in the CPT Lab typing away at endless entries and commenting a million times a day. LOL Yah well anyways I bought a car yesterday, its a Oldmobile Delta Royale....it looks like a boxed chevy caprice its pretty ghetto, you know how I do, Woogie begged me to buy it...Hey It aint great but im not complaining because I cant wait to drive...The 18th of next month baby! Im suppose to be researching for some english paper...Damn I am never doing what I need to be doing........
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Im Alive...I promise [17 Feb 2006|09:25am]
Okay ya so its been awhile since Ive been on this...Ive been caught up in the recent rage of "My Space". Im in the libary at school right know because I'm suppose to be working on my American Government packet...Yah im so not doing it...figures! I have like 15 minutes and I was extremly tired of working on questions from out of the book and the computer looked pretty intriguing, so you know me cant fight them temptations. Just been chillen lately working hard at my new job at Highlands Animal Hospital as a receptionist, and trying to just get up outta school and graduate already. Still going out with Woogie the 28th of this month will be 9 months for us...Tommorrow I officialy 1 month away from being legal..thats scary and whats even scarier is I just dont know what im going to do with college and moving out and everything I want to go to IRCC but I havent even filled out an application yet, talk about procrastinating! Im looking for a car, because I get my license back when I turn 18, shoot Ive been waiting like 6 or some odd months to finally get my license back, but the only thing is I need to start looking for a car..Ive been keeping my eye out and my mom and I have looked at 2 cars..But shes so fricken picky that it didnt work out..but my goal is to have one within 3 weeks so i can get insurace and get everything up and running the day I turn 18, because you dont know how bad I want my freedom back. Woogie got caught driving without a licence and thats a violation to his probation luckily the told him he would only have to pay 300.00 and some change and they wont lock him up...only problem he has less than 30 days to pay or hes done with for some years. I feel bad..I dont know what to do..I could give him the money and prolong me getting my car up and running when i get one...cuz you have to have anywhere from 600-1000 dollars down payment for insurance...I dont know....ALmost time to go....I hate there sceduales here..2 more classes till lunch then I get to call my baby...Im gettin tired and class starts in 4 min...Love ya xoxo
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[18 Dec 2005|07:31pm]
Go Back Way Back....
Before the you used internet or the MAC
Before semi automatics and crack
Before playstation or xbox

Way back...

I'm talkin' bout hide and go seek at dusk.
Red light, Green light.
Playing kickball & dodgeball until your porch light came on.
Mother May I?
Red Rover
Hula Hoops
Running through the sprinkler
Happy Meals


Watchin' Saturday Morning cartoons
or what about legends of the hidden temple, global guts, double dare, and ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
could'nt forget Snick
Fat Albert, Road Runner, Smurfs, Picture Pages, G-Force & He-Man Wonder Woman
& Scooby Doo Underoos
Playing Dukes of Hazard
Catchin' lightning bugs in a jar
Christmas morning...
Your first day of school
Bedtime Prayers and Goodnight Kisses
and your favorite lunchables.

Climbing trees
Getting an ice cream off the ice cream truck
A million mosquito bites and sticky fingers
Jumpin' down the steps
Jumpin' on the bed
Pillow fights
Runnin ' till you were out of breath
Laughing so hard that your stomach hurt
Being tired from playin'
Your first crush...
Rainy days at school meant playing "Heads down seven up" in the classroom

Remember that?

I'm not finished yet...
Kool-Aid was the drink of the summer
Giving your friends a ride on your handlebars
Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school
Class Field Trips
When nearly everyone's mom was at home when the kids got there.
When a quarter seemed like a fair allowance, and another quarter a Miracle.
and when you couldnt match your clothes to save your life.

When any parent could discipline any kid, or feed him or use him to carry groceries, and nobody, not even the kid, thought a thing of it.
When your parents took you to McDonalds and you were so cool.
When being sent to the principal's office was nothing compared to the fate that awaited a misbehaving student at home.

Basically, we were in fear for our lives but it wasn't because of drive by shootings, drugs, gangs, etc.
Our parents and grandparents were a much bigger threat! And some of us are still afraid of em!

Didn't that feel good, just to go back and say, "Yeah, I remember that!"

I want to go back to the time when...
Decisions were made by going "eeny-meeny-miney-mo"
Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming, "do over!"
"Race issue" meant arguing about who ran the fastest.
Money issues were handled by whoever was the banker in "monopoly"
Catching fireflies could happily occupy an entire evening
It wasn't odd to have two or three "best" friends.
Being old, referred to anyone over 20.
The worst thing you could catch from the opposite sex was cooties.
Nobody was prettier than Mom
Scrapes and bruises were kissed and made better
It was a big deal to finally be tall enough to ride the "big people" rides at the amusement park.
Getting a foot of snow was a dream come true.
and snow days were the best times ever.
Abilities were discovered because of a "double-dog-dare"
Spinning around, getting dizzy and falling down was cause for giggles.
The worst embarrassment was being picked last for a team.
Water balloons were the ultimate weapon.
Older siblings were the worst tormentors, but also the fiercest protectors.
If you can remember most or all of these, then you have lived!!!

Now, never forget it...i double dog dare you.
now you cant back down.
because if you were ever a kid,
then you know the unbreakable rules of a double dog dare. and don't even tell me remembering your childhood
didn't make you miss it even for a second.
because i can easily admit
that it was the best time of my life

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[09 Dec 2005|02:32pm]
Going to Miami this weekend...Gonna have a blast....
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and just promise me that its going to be ok.... [07 Dec 2005|09:19pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Here my life goe's again...Ive said it before and I'll say it again, Life never stays the same. I swear when you feel like your trying your best you only get shot down. I'm scared, I'll be turning 18 in 3 months and Im in for a hell of a wake up call, and I dont think Im prepared for the rude awakening. Sometimes I just wish I was living in a nightmare, and that I could wake up and it all be ok again. Money, family, just a few of the problems Im facing. Im so glad Woogie and I are doing good...because thats one thing I dont think I can handle going bad. Christmas is coming soon...Im so not in the spirit of things...I wish I could be more cheerful but for some reason I have a uncontrolable urge just to cry, and get away from it all...Im in a very emotional mood...

Im so stressed out......

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[03 Dec 2005|10:16am]
Im sick it sucks...

Babysat for Tre' last night so I was at my dads till about 12. I didnt feel good so It was proabaly the best to stay in and not go out. My babys sick too!

Christmas is coming very fast...Ugh Im so not in the mood!

I dont feel good!
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Well what do you think about that? [30 Nov 2005|03:08pm]
[ mood | rejuvenated ]

Wow, I have really neglected writing in my journal. Things have been good, Me and Woogie just had our 6 months on Monday and he came over for dinner and everything is great, Tonight he's going to met me on my break for Night school to spend time with me...I love him so much. Ive really havent been doing all that much, ya know trying to stay home and be good and stay outta trouble. I didnt feel good today so I stayed home from school, but I have to go to night school because Im suppose to be done with it by Christmas, haha I dunno. I cant believe Christmas is less than a month away, thats insane! Well I really dont have much to say so I'll try to write more often <3

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[12 Nov 2005|03:38pm]
Damn, I never update anymore...I use to all the time...Just stopping in to say hello, dont really have much to write about, cuz well if you need to know whats going on with me then just ask...Im on my way to Melbourne tonight to babysit, cant wait to get home because my baby is coming over tommorow...This weekend Ive been chilling with Erica and Robert and 305 came over last nite..Nothing to much...Comment and show some love!
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[27 Oct 2005|07:58pm]
omg just went to update with a pic it took up my whole journal. well theres my baby! lol
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Broken heart [22 Oct 2005|06:30pm]
How do you move on and go about your life when your leaving the most important person behind...Maybe someday I will learn, someday I will look back at this time in my life and laugh but all I can do is cry and want it back...It feels like my life is over. I cant take it...
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[14 Oct 2005|05:47pm]
New plans...going to the game....Trying to rush and get ready, my shirt for the game is not drying...Im not packed and all....awww Stressing..Woogie hasent called me so im blowing him off till i get to my aunts around 11....
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Humor me? [14 Oct 2005|02:59pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Sam and Erica wanted me to go to the homecoming game tonight, we were gonna make shirts and everything, but like always I had to say no, because Im spending the whole weekend with woogie...I know I feel horrible. Im sorry nigglets!

Im tired....and need to get packed for this weekend...

People are so immature at times, it makes me wanna laugh in there face and be like get over yourself, I think its quite humoring, Im not even going to waste my time...I have better things to do...but I always get a kick outta people who are so mad at themselves that they try to bring you down...not gunna happen.

Wont be home to post....Fill you all in earlier in the week...

Go Sharks..win win win!

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Does it ever end? [13 Oct 2005|08:29pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Woogies pissed at me...
Hes iggnoring me...
He sits there and says do what you do, but oviously it bugs him that I had a guy call me....Hmm what did I say when the sides are flipped you'll realise what it feels like! Well anyways I called him at 4 today we talked, very little then he took another call and never switched over so 10 min later I called him back and hes like what...I'll call you back later and hung up...that was around 4:15...Never called me back now I just called him at 8:30 and I was like hey and he did the same thing...I dont treat him like shit, and I wish he would treat me with respect, he iggnores the issue and dosent talk it out, unlike me who likes to solve it and not stay mad at eachother. Im really in a depressed mood, didnt get to go to the game tonight, wont be able to really go out with everyone this weekend, Cuz mom said I have to either be at my aunts or woogies...Lets see how he told me hes going to stay home all weekend..he promised the whole weekend was going to be spent with me. Im so tired, but I cant go to sleep without talking to him tonight...He better fucking call me back. Nigga!

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[13 Oct 2005|02:49pm]
Saw my baby last night...It was awesome...Met some like 26 year old black guy at the park that started talking to us about inter racial relationships which lead to a deep 1 hour dicussion on sex and sex tips...Him and Woogie bonded alot, this guy was hilarious...I HAD THE BEST SEX ever last nite! HAHA...

Got home and was talkin to Nick and I had him give his homeboy D my cell number...just to talk to, and my ass got caugh because this boy left a voice message on my phone and Woogie called me last nite asking why I had niggas calling my cell...I feel really bad, but really the boy only called me, I didnt call him, nor have I ever met him...anyways we havent talked since then and he said he would call me this morning, but I guess he;s still kinda heated about it...

I really wanna go to the powder puff game...But Im getting bitched at here...
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Get the fuck out! [12 Oct 2005|09:40am]
[ mood | blah ]

Sitting at schoool in the computer lab suppose to be working on our Capstone project, I didnt feel well this morning so I went to the clinic but my mom wouldnt pick me up, So I Layed down for an hour...and now Im back in class. Today were stuck in our vocational for 4 hours because the other kids are taking PSATS. Moms going away today, I have adult ed tonight I want to skip it but I dont know if I should...I get to spend the whole weekend with my baby, Im staying at my aunts house who lives like next street over from Woogie. My mom is letting Dennis move in, I am so pissed...She told me if I dont like it move out, what the fuck? This morning I was out in the car waiting for her and she took 10 minutes and I was late for school so I went inside to tell her we need to go and Dennis started yelling at me...I went off I was shaking so bad, I was so fucking pissed...Me and my mom are still fighting, shes putting him over me...I hate life right now..She says Im causing all these problems in the house and its affecting everyone...Anyways enough bitching...I got stuff to make my spirt shirt for Friday, I hope it turns out good, I wanted Shannon and I to make matching shirts but when I try to talk to her she act like she dont talk to me anymore...I was going to go to the Powder Puff game on Thursday but me and my mom got into a fight and shes like your not fucking going, Im really pissed about that, but I'll get over it... Sam, Erica and Robert are skipping today, I wanted to skip but there was no way I could since they werent going out to Vero till 10, and my mom brings me to school so ya know...

Leave me some love

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Fun [10 Oct 2005|03:29pm]
[ mood | Sam on the ball ]

Havent gotten a chance to post about Saturday night...Hung out with Sam, Erice,Zo,Shawanna,and Amber...Oh and cant forget our 29 year old sugar daddy Mario...LOL We chilled at the mall...then Sam had the keys to someones house (name is not going to be mentioned) but anyways she was watching this persons dog because they were outta town so we got a bottle and stayed the night there...It was so much fun..everyone was so drunk.

Highlights of the night:
*Standing in line for the kit kats with Erica
*Sam on the ball with nothing under her skirt lifting it up
*All of us gettin into the tub for a bubble bath
*Erica, Sam and Me walking at 4 in the morning to park her car somewhere then having to walk a mile back to the house...
*Recording the fuck and fart
*Getting the dog drunk
*Wanting to swim in the canal...aww gators.
*Shawanna waking up in the morning, and leaving because she didnt know where she was

What a blast...

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Hotel...Motel...Holiday Inn [08 Oct 2005|12:53pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

Whoa, just nearly killed myself, I was leaning back in the computer chair and I lost my balence and almost fell back but I caught myself. I just got up, Didnt end up falling asleep till like 3:00. Woogie finally called me like 30 minutes after I got home, he was in Miami...(supposily)! He got mad at me for going out last night...Like Im not suppose to be going out..haha nigga please. Sam and I are trying to get a telly tonight...we gotta see who can put in on it, Its probaly gonna be around 60.00. I really would like Woogie to go but if Zo's going to be there, there might be some beefing going on, and I want this to be a drama free night with no more fights...If not I think we'll just chill at the mall or go see a movie...You wouldnt believe the amount of people still at the mall last night at 12:00. But anyways, I think Im going to call Woogie and see what he's up to today and then maybe go back and lay down. Im feeling kinda lazy today, Uhh and I hate it because I want to be motivated. Speaking of motivated I wanted to make a shirt for Spirt Friday for homecoming week...So I think maybe Sunday I'll go and buy all the supplies...OKay really now Im gonna go...<3

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Whoa..What a nite! [08 Oct 2005|12:41am]
[ mood | scared ]

Wow...Tonight was crazy. Went out to the mall and saw everyone! Slimbo and Zo got into a fite 2nite and that shit was crazy...me and Sam were in tears and I was screaming...Saw the exorsism of Emily Rose....holy shit im so not going to bed. Woogie hasent called me all day...and he's not home....WTF? Missing in action Im so pissed at him..Im so tired I just got home and the whole way home me sam and erica were trippin freaking eachother out...that damn movie has us trippen...But overall I had a decent night crazy but fun...I am never talking to Slibo, Israel or any of them grimy ass niggas again...

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I've learned... [07 Oct 2005|04:04pm]
[ mood | groggy ]

I have learned alot of lessons in my life, actually I am still learning. Alot of these lessons were easy, and some ... well let's put it this way, I probably could have climbed Mount Everest faster than those lessons penetrated this hard head of mine.But those lessons, the hardest ones to learn, have made me a better person. And I try to put them to good use each day. I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. I've learned that no matter how much I care,some people just don't care back.I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it. I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. I've learned that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts. I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do but to the best you can do. I've learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life. I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be. I've learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it. I've learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time. I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up. I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,but we are responsible for who we become. I've learned to believe in love at first sight. And most of all I've learned lifes not fair you just have to live with what you got and that you cant change things...

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